NEVER be dependent.

alright, due to my lack of skills to be able to fix anything that i screw up. it definitely got the best of me tonight. pushing one little button on my phone had shut the whole network down. and in all honesty, it tore me apart. first screaming a couple of "bad" words. i found myself bawling over the stupid device.

seriously? after bawling to my family about how stupid i am to screw something up that was so simple not to touch. i did. i guess curiosity really did kill the cat. cause trust me, i sure felt like my life was over.

they all felt really bad for me? i started giving all the reason's why i was so upset that my phone had been shut down.

• How am i going to be able to get home from school?!
• what if i have an emergency and have to call someone?
• what if something comes up and someone has to call me?!
• what if i have to use my phone at school cause im stranded!
• what if i get kidnapped?!
• what if im stranded at the school for lunch and i cant call my friends?! 
• what if i need to mom and she wont answer cause she knows its not my number?!
• what if i have to research something in class?!
• what if i forget something at home and i cant call you to bring it to me?!

..after listening to myself, im thinking. what a joke. im tied to something that is so irrelevant to what is actually important in life. i get so caught up in anticipating the future, that i cant even enjoy the moment.

cause really, look at those questions. am i really gonna get kidnapped? i think not. and if so.. i have feet. cant i run? cant i scream?
i can. but do i realize i can?
nope. because of the dumb cellular that makes me so dependent on it. that i almost feel helpless without it.

this can relate to SO many life lessons. translate this to how you want. cause i have learned more about myself in these last couple minutes, more than i have almost my whole life.

a life lesson is hidden in every single thing you do. just look, and surely you'll see. i promise you.